i cannot remember my early years. this is called infantile amnesia, from the Ancient Greek mnasthai, to remember. my first memory is of my mother’s nipple. my second is blood in the washroom, copper in the steamed shower air. the body coming together again. tell me about these bodies, and how they fell from the sky. when it was late, and the gods had gone to sleep, the sun burning out in a fiery stupor, hiding behind the acacia tree. we took the bodies and turned them into light, and stories. we took them and breathed life into the night, their bare chests rising and falling and rising again. i remember the lamp burning out and being coaxed into darkness like slipping into a pool of water gently, so that the cold comes onto you slowly, feet and then leg, hip, stomach, breasts. this body, not my body. the cold, still becoming. the body becoming whole again. tell me about the time i slipped under the waves and drowned before washing up on the river bed, the body breathing and dying once again. in another life, my first memory is still my mother’s nipple. the seed of rot nestling between my ribs, unfolding like the waterlily in spring. the days where i felt the heat on my chest and knew it to be the sun, and saw the reflection of my body on the porcelain, jagged and smooth all at once. this is when i knew the sun was not the sun i thought it to be, the seed growing into a fertile tree, fruits nestling between the leaves, ripe and plump. my bare chest rising and falling and rising again, and every time i saw my mother’s nipple i hear you do not remember this. you do not see this and my breaths soften. tell me about the time i fell from the sky, when the sun was burning out, and the acacia tree casted long shadows against the earth. the gods were sleeping and you, bodies, fell from heaven onto earth. you slipped into the river before drifting away, and now you have returned. sit down. rest. the fire has yet to burn out, and we food and water to share.